I doubt anyone is reading this blog here, so might as well I just rant everything out. Probably not most of it, but yeah, who cares right? Yeah yeah, who cares -.- Alright, I'm super exhausted from work already. 4 hours of sleep every weekdays can really kill me. I feel like I ain't any 16 year old kid anymore. It's like I'm working now, and yes, I'm being treated like one "adult", and I have to behave like one everytime I go for work (of course must act la. haha) I can't be the age that I'm in, some of my friends working, having so much fun or whatever shitz. Not that I'm not having fun, just that my work is boring. Yes, B-O-R-I-N-G. I want to quit (yes, i've said that long long long time ago, or many many many times already), but I'm afraid that there won't be any other suitable jobs for me. I love this job I'm having. Just that I hate my current job cause I have to wake up super early, and it's boring! Yes, I'm complaining like one motherfcuker. So what?

Alright, I'm complaining like one idiot here. I'm currently chatting with MS YAP XIN TING MICHELLE, and yes the topic "I miss the people in school", and yes, I miss those people I mixed around in school :( How sad. (inserts sad face here) Yes, I broke my promise, and I'm back to square one, blogging about those people I missed and crap stuffs. Haha who cares! ^^ Just tahan people, here it goes! Haha :D I miss 4C,  I miss combine classes with 4D, I miss all sec 4NAs, I miss Mr Nasim, I miss Mr Teoh, I miss Mr Hoe that @#$%!, I miss Mdm Bariyah's scoldings + naggings + her clothings (oh-so-cool), I miss Mr Raj's lessons (the lessons which I always look forward to), I miss Ms Ooi's math lessons (where she'll become very pekcek with us until either Farris/Alson make her smile), I miss recess, I miss the school bell, I miss seeing those lower sec (random!), I miss assembly, I miss taking the shuttle bus up school, I miss running in to school when I'm late, I miss hanging out with different people, I miss those times where I had a lot of memories with some other people, I miss those teachers who made me hate them, I miss chinese classes from Mdm Cheng (where she'll talk slowly to us, explaining stuffs to us, and giving us the motherly love that we've never felt from other teachers), I miss being in band after being suspended, I miss the school library, I miss Mdm Sim where she'll talk crap with us every time during free period in library, I miss the school toilets, I miss my classrooms, I miss all my classmates who were once same class as me, I miss those days that I bullied Razi (laughs), I miss getting caught because of having too much earrings, I miss teacher's days where the whole school is very very havoc, I miss everything & every single little thing in Chestnut Drive Secondary.

The school where a place to learnt, where someone truely care for us, a place where teachers are patient enough to teach students like us (laughs), a place where is the best location a school can ever be, a place where we (students) learnt to love, share & determine. I'm going to miss this damn school man! Holyshitz. Alright, I shall stop promoting CDSS then. I'm outz!

I'm proud to be a CDIAN.

I'm dead tired from work, I'm getting to bed once I'm done with this (inserts sleey face) My feets are still cramp from all those walkings today. And I met a lot of wierdos today. Haha, and of course me & Evan couldn't stop laughing. Lol. My eyes are shutting, I'm trying to keep them awake, but I can't I have to sleep now. So I shall blog next time then :) Get back here soon! Ohyah, this are the November Babies dok. Scorpions dok! ^^

Lovely November Babies (1st Nov - 30th November)

• 3rd November , Dharmawan's 16th
• 4th November , Fabian Toh's 16th
• 6th November , Ely Martina's 18th
• 8th November , Iszehari's 16th & YuXuan's 15th
• 10th November , Amanda Chan's 16th
• 11th November , Jeremy Yap's 18th
• 13th November , MY SWEET 16 ! , Khalilah's 17th
• 16th November , Emily & Isaac's 16th
• 18th November , Aliff's 16th & Cammie's 14th
• 19th November , MUMMY'S 52th
• 22nd November , Qurratu Aini's 17th
• 25th November , Anna's 16th & MeiFang's 18th
• 26th November , Shesha's 16th
• 28th November , Fahrizah's 20th(?)
• 30th November , Ms Kwok's __(?) & Regina's __(?)

Total number of people celebrating their Birthdays : 21 (Not including others not-that close friends.)

I know I've not done my part,
I know that once you receive that, you'll be hurt somehow.
I know that by saying 'sorry' can't help much at all.
I have to tell you this, cause I've to stop lying to you, and of course, myself.

I hope you'll understand.
If you don't, I don't know what can I say, I don't know what can I do,
But just get on with my life.

Cruel much? Hah.

I need to tell you soon, I can't possibly hide forever.
It may hurt you either a little, or A LOT. But what can I do? Nothing.
I don't wish to hurt you, I don't want to hurt you.
Yes, I said that. But I can't possibly not telling you the fact, and carry this thing on.
I have to bring the harsh part in me, by telling you that.

I don't intend to hurt you at all, you know me.

It's peaceful in the morning of the starting of November, 4:41AM to be exact.
I can hear every single noise made. I wonder when can this last till.
Probably, this is the only time I can feel the peacefulness in this small little town call: Bukit Batok :-)

Alright, someone just spoilt my morning. My naggy dad :/
Told ya' that this peacefulness won't be able to last that long right? Ha-ha.
I've think a lot this few days.
Many people seemed to be happy, but they're not at all, seriously.
I've heard many problems, seen many situations.

Sometimes, I feel that this is so wrong. I've made a decision upon a difficult situation.
This can be easy, but yet, I've made this difficult to setlle.
I think I'm going to make some choice.
A wrong or bad one? I can predict to that either, which sucks huh?

I'll head to bed now since it's almost 5AM. Where there will be working people, waking up,
detroying my pleasure of silence. Ha-ha. So, I rather sleep.
Signing off then. Ciaos :-)

I tried to, but I can't. It's not working out.